Dream or sign?

on Monday, June 17, 2013

aku di kompleks membeli belah... jalan keseorangan...

aku tak tahu kompleks ni dimana.. tak pernah aku sampai tempat ini..
namun, aku nampak seperti biasa dengan tempat ini...
sedang aku berjalan menuju ke escalator, dia menghampiri aku..
yup, dia...
tak pernah aku lihat dia berjubah serba hitam..
hanya senyuman terukir, tiada kata-kata yang dituturkan oleh nya..
dia menemaniku pusing sekitar kompleks ini...
seperti biasa, seperti tiada apa-apa yang pernah berlaku antara kami berdua..
gelak ketawanya, sama seperti mana reaksinya apabila aku sakat dia...
terasa bahagia seketika.. namun...
apa yang jadi selepas itu benar-benar buat aku berfikir panjang..
adakah ini petanda atau hanya sekadar mimpi?

diwaktu ak berhenti seketika dan ingin membetulkan ikatan tali kasutku..
aku tunduk.. namun dia tak berhenti berjalan..
ada sedikit jarak antara kami, baru dia berhenti dan menoleh kearahku..
aku senyum dan kata, "tunggu jap, nak betulkan kasut ni"

seperti sebelum ini, dia tak bersuara,
hanya senyuman yang terukir..
dapat kulihat riak wajahnya dengan jelas sekali..
dalam senyuman itu, ada 1001 kesedihan...
sebak aku lihat.. tak pernah ak lihat riak wajahnya sebegini..
sedang aku memperbetulkan tali kasut ku,
ku lihat dia menuju keluar dari kompleks ini..
aku seakan terkejut dengan apa yang terjadi...

aku memanggilnya.. namun dia bukan sahaja tidak menyahut..
malah dia tidak menoleh langsung...
dia lalu dibelakangku,
dari dinding kaca, aku lihat dia beredar seperti tiada apa-apa..
seperti dia tidak pernah mengenali diriku ini..

aku hairan dan terkejut..
perkara seperti ini pernah terjadi,
aku pernah ditinggalkan di kompleks membeli belah..
tapi aku tak dapat melihat saat aku ditinggalkan..
dan pada waktu itu, orang lain yang meninggalkan aku..
tapi kini, dia meninggalkan aku...
aku dapat saksikan sendiri..
panggilan aku dia tak sahut...
mesej telefon dia tak balas..

dalam kepala aku, bermain beberapa fikiran..
dia datang sini naik apa kalau bukan dengan aku?
dia kesini untuk apa kalau bukan untuk bersama aku?
kenapa dia berjubah?
kenapa senyumannya buat hati aku rasa sangat-sangat tersentuh?
aku bergegar menuju ke pintu keluar...
namun dia tidak lagi berada di dalam pandangan..
aku cuba lari dan terus mencari..
namun usaha aku buntu..
yang ada hanyalah jalan yang kosong
dan lampu isyarat yang berwarna merah menyala...

selepas itu, dia tidak lagi kelihatan...
khabar darinya juga tidak kedengaran...
adakah ini petunjuk atau hanyalah mainan syaitan?
aku akui aku salah..
aku akui aku sunyi..
namun kali ini, terasa impak yang begitu besar sekali..
jauh berbeza dari yang biasa...

semoga yang terbaik hadir bagi dia
dan juga bagi diriku...
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Nostalgia

on Saturday, January 26, 2013

so.. my last post is on Saturday, May 5, 2012


Its been a long time since I update this blog. well, its not like there are reader here anyway...
the reason I update this post is because its not suitable to post it in facebook and twitter as it will be a long post.

Yesterday (Friday 25th January 2013), during the way back from Masjid Subang Airport, suddenly I heard a familiar music playing on the radio... I recognize that sound, but wasn't it a chinese song?? how come Sinar FM play chinese song? I didn't touch the radio at all. Oh, by the way, I'm not driving that day, I just a passenger of my senior car, that's why Sinar FM is the main radio...

And yes, the song play along.. and the song title is Beyond - Vast Sky and Boundless Sea... this song is one of my favourite during school day.. hehehe.. kind of weird that I 'layan' chinese song even though I can't pronounce the words correctly.. but the music is not bad.. at all..

back to to day (Saturday 26th January 2013), I listen to that song over and over again, thanks to youtube. hehehehe.. I'm still listening right now during this post update.. so today, my whatsapp was extended to 17th February 2014... don't know what happen, but it extend on its on... I guess I will stick with whatsapp for another year...

saturday, my house wiring is still pending.. have to help a few things... lucky me, my young brother is an electrician.. so the budget for wiring is way way cheaper than appoint someone else to do it. yet, the work is not complete.. its been like a whole month and my house is still in a mess with casing, wire, toolbox etc laying around in my house.. wuwuwuwu...

still have to buy a few things, so head out to the store.. owh, lets go back a few hour before that...
earlier in the morning I go to workshop, to change a few parts for my bike..
and it was kind of disaster and attention seeker as it takes hours just to finish changing parts of my bike, the mechanic didn't know how to dissemble the front sprocket.. and parts given by that workshop also mismatch with my bike.. it take 2 hours just to complete my bike.. hopefully after this my bike is in perfect condition again... after finish with the bike matters, I went straight to my friend sisters' wedding. As I arrive, I can see him talking on handphone with someone, I park right in front of him... went inside with him and eat together.. as I enter the hall, I approach his father, he was happy that I arrive to that wedding. Beside him, I saw his sister, the one that beautiful and just become someone wife last year ( I did attend their wedding)... nothing much I can say on that wedding.. but the bride did arrive late.. I thought I was late as I arrive around 2pm or so.. but just before I want to eat, the bride has arrive.. so I'm sorry, I can't go there and record a FullHD video for your wedding... soon after finish eating.. I had to head back house, to continue the wiring work..

so after solat, I went out with my younger brother to buy a few things.. during the journey to that store, my brother having a conversation with me.. which is rare actually, but not bad.. and I think I can talk more to him nowadays.. Its good to see him actually become someone who can be relied on.. back at home, continue those wiring work.. well, its not like I'm the one who do all the work.. most of the work is done by my younger brother.. the rest is by my father.. I was kind of like useless regarding this electrical work... its not like I know nothing about wiring.. but my laziness strike again.. hehehehe

wait, how about my big brother? well, he was much better than me.. sleeping all day (after I reach home from the store, he also was home.. then I saw he sleeping..) so nothing much he contribute to my wiring... the work goes until maghrib.. where only my father is still doing some minor work, for his room.. while I already sat in front of my beloved PC...
after solat, I got a miss call from a private number... I know who are the one that call, yet, I wait a few minute before returning that call as I still have to clean a little mess.. then another miss call was shown in my phone (please note that my phone always on silent expect in public)

So I call back that guy, he was my bestfriend during school days, I knew he going to ask me to hangout with him.. I agree and wait for him to call back later at night... so yes, I went to Shah Alam and hangout with him..
this is where the story become nostalgic for me..

so there, my classmate and him talking about something.. I dont want to know the detail, so I just sat there beside him.. after a few small talk, he ask me.. "tu bukan XXXXX ke?" then as I turn around, I saw that guy there.. yes, it's him.. 'the one with the glasses' (TOWTG). well, TOWTG didn't look here, so I thought I want to give him a suprise SMS saying I was there, yet.. the SMS didn't reach him.. I think he change his number again.. so nevermind that..

while we were talking and laughing.. talk about MRT project etc, suddenly this one guy, a classmate of mine during bachelor year come and approach us.. I was like.. "apsal mamat ni?" as I cant recognize him at first glance.. he shake hand with us and ask me "keje mane sekarang?" I answered him and he did recognize my company name. hehehehe.. well, still can't beat a company that work with MRT project.. so he go back to his table and smile at me.. to be honest, we are not that close during bachelor year.. but things did change due to time (maturity I say).. and after having career, what happen or you do during bachelor year is no longer valid...

what make me want to update this post in the first place is the topic of conversation with my friend, lets call him CRUZE. so cruze start a topic about our school life.. our "friends".. yes, many of them already have a family of their own.. kind of jealous because those that already married is those that I thought will be the last of us that will ever get married.. wuwuwuwu... I'm such a loser... and due to that conversation.. it makes me realise.. I don't have that much friend to begin with... I'm not having the greatest childhood or school days compare to others... not even a single girlfriend (awek) to begin with.... hahahaha.. but I kind of happy that I DID HAVE a few female friend.. and whats best, they are the topic tonight...

a few person have been the topic, I dont think I want to mention all of them.. even their story is better than the rest.. but I want to mention this one girl.. no, she not the-one-who-change-my-life.. as she also become a topic tonight.. but nothing much.. but this one girl that I want to mention, I think she deserve a better rank than that.. lets call her LAW

so I ask cruze, how's law doing right now? still in Malaysia or not? he answered that she change a lot.. she's no longer law that I knew before.. well, I can understand that much..

she's the reason during my matriculation day, I have the courage to talk to another girl.. well law is freehair, so she's kind of exception.. I don't really see her as a girl.. its more like seeing an emo/sensitive friend or an honest/sengal/clumsy friend... almost every night, I would call her.. no, I'm not in love with her, but I gather advice, courage and yelling from here.. so that I can get my self-esteem at matriculation. I knew, I AM A LOSER back then..still a loser maybe?

well, I still have the recorded files of our telephone conversation, hearing back those conversation (I'm listenin to it right now).. really can make me laugh, shed into tear (I dont want to cry)... and worst.. make me realise many of my mistakes... so law currently not in Malaysia.. I guess.. but I really want to met her again, if possible..

so what happen? if I and her was that close before.. how come we can lose contact with each other??
the reason is simple.. a few weeks after she went to United Kingdom, that time MySpace was the trend of teenager, she already have Facebook. So as a joke, I'm saying "weh, kalo aku de facebook nnt.. leh r aku add ko kn?"
what she reply is something that I won't forget... "kalau ko add aku, aku tak akan approve weh, takde2.. jangan nak add aku"

the rest, I dont think suitable for me to write it here.. but THIS IS THE REASON WHY I DON'T WANT TO SIGN UP TO FACEBOOK IN THE FIRST PLACE. haih.. currently listening to her voice... she's laughing right now listening to my blabbering... I MISS HER.. I really wish she can be my bestfiend like we used to be.. but I know.. it's not going to happen.. so never mind.. if ada rezeki.. I will met her again.. someday...

there's more I want to write here about her.. but its already 2:40am... I need a good rest..
good night blogger... till we met again.
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Now you just somebody that i used to know

on Saturday, May 5, 2012

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Dragon

on Sunday, January 15, 2012

disebabkan ak xde twitter or facebook utk menganjing, aku pun post r kt blog ni...
haih.. dh 2012, tp byk bende ak capai lagi...

galaxy s2 sebagai contoh.. ble ak pegang.. ak rasa kecik plak...
hahahaha.. off coz r.. bende tu dh expired kn...
then ak tgk note plak, mmg memenuhi nafsu gadget aku.. tp xpractical
susah nk masuk dlm poket kot...
so skrg ni target r galaxy s3 yg xwujud2.. duit dh de.. device je xde lagi.. adoi..
so mcm biasa.. menunggu dgn penuh sabar..
dh r samsung ak tgh gne skrg ni dh mule xnk de backlight plak.. siot tul..
mmg suro aku switch r lps ni...

graphic card aka gpu... pas aku dh jual 5850 aku dlu.. ak gne abg ak nye 5770
mmg mcm downgrade r kn?tp ok r.. a few games ak dh settlekn dgn 5770 (mostly wii)
then ble ak dh de duit ni.. ak cari paling power dunia.. so gtx580soc r target ak..
ak search2 kt lelong,lowyat n mudah.. siot tul.. semua dh abis stock...
so tunggu r hd7970oc dr gigabyte plak.. as usual.. menunggu dgn penuh sabar..

hujung bln ni, insyaAllah result master akan keluar..
dpt ke x.. ak pun xtaw.. kalo dpt, xde r aku bosan sgt kot hujung minggu..
de r blk aktiviti "study" aku... n ak pun de r student card blk kn...
hopefully dpt r... masih lagi de jiwa yang dahagakan ilmu ni..
kalo x, mmg malas r nk tgk nota ke buku etc

lps ni thn dragon, yeah!
tahun aku, tp aku blom r 24thn lagi.. mude lagi ni weh...
parents ak dh sebok2 suro pk ttg kawen.. aku plak bz pk ttg 3screen eyefinity ( -_-")
hope thn ni ok skit r ak nye idup...
maksud aku, blaja ok, keje ok..
tp keje kureng ok segi payment.. so nnt mmg ak ingat nk tukar r kn...
mcm xberkembang je kalo ak stay situ lame2...

photog, ramai yg racun fikiran aku suro beli dslr...
adoi... aku mmg minat gadget2.. termasuk dslr, cume ak super noob jer..
tp dslr ni.. lagi mahal kot... sgt2..
so xtaw r nk beli ke x.. kne pegi bertapa dulu dgn paan kot..
tgk dia berjaya racun fikiran aku ke x...
tp ak rasa ak more on video kot.. ak ske 1080p@30 dr 16MP still image ( -_- )
tp tgk r mcm mne, wat masa ni mmg xde allocation budget tuk dslr lagi

pe yg agak best n xbest baru2 ni...
aku dok pk ttg the past (as hafix sebut dlu.. kne sebut the past gaya hafix baru macho!!)
1st. yg best... aku dh xde dok pk sgt ttg perkara2 tersebut.. ahaahaha
aku mcm hamba yang baru merdeka weh.. best gak rasa mcm ni rupenye
xde r ak dok termenung mcm org bodo selalu kn?
2nd. yg xbest.. aku mcm xsempat nk mintak maaf kt mereka2 kot??
rasa bersalah tu de lagi, tp nk wat mcm mne kn?semua dh menghilangkn diri...
hahahaha.. aku sendiri pun menghilangkn diri kot?? nk wat mcm mne... no lagendary aku
celcom dgn selamber nye potong ikut ske..
so end of story about "the past"
hahahahahaa

internet!! Y U NO F*CKING BORING??
baru upgrade jadi 4mbps (yes, i know unifi de 5-20mbps)
laju tu leh thn r.. still below average dunia kot..
tp download xde r wat sakit ati mcm dlu..
but the main point here is.. de internet laju pun.. ak xde life gak...
ak xde fb/twitter/whatever
aka, aku bkn network social pun... so idle je r pc ak ni...
skrg ni pun mlm2 tutup pc.. hahaha...
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Windows 7 with Sense

on Friday, December 30, 2011


Using LG 32inch TV. its sucks! no 1080p, have to 'bersila' all day.
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Bila anda...

on Saturday, November 12, 2011

"bila anda tengok movie, terasa ingin buat sesuatu yang bodoh seperti dalam movie tersebut"

"bila anda tengok kereta berbaris panjang dari tol shah alam hingga ke pusat bandar klang pada petang jumaat, tetapi anda membawa moto dengan kelajuan 130km/j di laluan moto memintas mereka semua"



"bila anda mendengar muzik, lalu anda teringat cara untuk main lagu itu menggunakan gitar"

"bila anda format komputer anda, teringat yang anda belum buat backup drive C anda"

"bila anda gatal tangan bukak folder my picture sejak zaman matrix dahulu, terasa diri anda sudah tua"

"bila anda nyanyi lagu hitz ketika zaman sekolah"

"bila anda borak dengan kawan anda, teringat kisah-kisah sengal anda"

"bila anda teringat kembali kecanggihan komputer anda pada tahun 1995"




"bila anda berjalan, anda teringat untuk pijak ikut petak-petak tiles di lantai"

"bila anda lihat contacts di telefon anda, anda tidak ingat siapa nama yang hendak dihubungi"

"bila anda habis menonton movie di komputer/laptop, anda mencari remote control untuk tutup monitor/laptop"

"bila anda melihat video yang diambil sewaktu belajar dahulu"

"bila anda mendengar rakaman perbualan anda sewaktu anda mengganggu orang belajar dahulu"

"bila anda sebut nama barang anda ibarat lagu"

"bila anda lalu ditempat yang anda pernah jatuh dahulu"

"bila anda naik keretapi dan berborak mengenai betapa teruknye perkhidmatan keretapi tersebut"

"bila anda tersilap jalan, U turn hanya boleh dibuat 40km dihadapan"





"bila anda terlalu percaya kepada suara wanita ditelefon anda yang menunjukkan arah perjalanan anda"

"bila anda hanya mempunyai rm2 untuk pulang kerumah dari kuala lumpur"

"bila anda memakai baju hujan lengkap, tetapi hari tak hujan manakala hari hujan bila anda tak memakai/membawa baju hujan"

"bila anda bukak firefox/chrome tetapi tiada idea hendak bukak website apa"

"bila anda on komputer/laptop anda hanya untuk shut down ia kembali"

"bila anda teringin untuk main game online tetapi internet dirumah down"

"bila anda lihat kanak-kanak bermain playstation di telefon bimbit mereka"

"bila anda inginkan sesuatu barang tetapi barang tersebut tiada dijual di Malaysia"

"bila anda usha penghantaran di ebay, tertera no shipping to Malaysia"

"bila anda membaca barang itu tertulis made in malaysia, tetapi tidak dijual dimalaysia"

"bila anda beli sesuatu tapi lupa apakah yang telah dibeli, namun rasa bangga kerana telah beli sesuatu"

"bila anda memandu kereta dan teringat game kereta lumba"

"bila anda berada dalam situasi dimana anda dikerumuni orang ramai, anda berasa seperti anda adalah assassin creed"

"bila anda ada perasaan untuk bertindak seperti Gran Theft Auto"

"bila anda teringin google sesuatu tetapi lupa bila pulang kerumah"

"bila anda mendapat miss call dari nombor yang tidak dikenali"

"bila anda rasa ingin panjat pokok macam zaman kanak-kanak"

"bila anda teringat yang dulu anda boleh buat front flip"

"bila anda terpandang yoyo di almari anda"

"bila anda kemas meja komputer anda selepas berbulan-bulan tidak menggunakannya"

"bila anda lihat screen laptop selepas lihat screen fullhd"

"bila anda memakai topi dan terlupa dari mana datangnya topi itu"

"bila anda order makanan yang sama setiap hari, tetapi harga berlainan setiap hari"

"bila anda tiada idea untuk menulis sesuatu, anda teringin untuk menulis sesuatu"

"bila anda dihantui kisah lampau, anda tutup komputer, baring dan tidur. tetapi keesokkan harinya, anda dihantui kembali"

"bila anda lalui jalan yang asing, tetapi rasa dah berkali-kali lalu jalan itu"

"bila anda memandu proton, kemudian memandu toyota"

"bila anda terlanggar orang buat pertama kali dan meminta maaf macam orang gila"

"bila anda rasa hati tak tenteram dan anda cuba lupakan perasaan tersebut"

"bila anda memotong kereta dilaluan kiri, anda rasa macam anda adalah tame racing driver"

"bila anda dah rasa muak dengan spam yang bersepah di internet"

"bila anda download sesuatu dan memerlukan password untuk membukanya"

"bila anda tiada perasaan ketika menunggu sesuatu"

"bila anda melihat budak melintas jalan dan terfikir, ' macam tu ke aku dulu?' "

"bila anda rasa bosan dengan komputer dan internet tetapi masih lagi berada dihadapan komputer"

"bila anda pegang gitar, lagu yang sama anda mainkan"

"bila anda hubungi kawan lama anda dan tidak tahu untuk berkata apa-apa"

"bila anda impikan internet 100mbps pada tahun 2010"

"bila anda baca surat khabar, anda tersengih kebodohan"

"bila anda tersilap fakta dan berbincang dengan orang yang lebih arif"

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LION

on Saturday, September 24, 2011







Finally, a fully working Mac OS X Lion

Mac Pro in da house yo~
^_^

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